Today, I took off my wedding rings.
Not by choice but by necessity.
And I don't like it.
My hand feels naked.
Like a vital piece is missing.
I knew that the start of year 3 would be the beginning of my self-discovery. But I didn't plan to take off my wedding set. But my travel to Brazil necessitated that decision. I was advised to not wear any jewelry I didn't want lost or stolen. So my wedding ring is safe at home. And my finger is empty. My heart is not sure how to feel about that.
Yes, I know it is temporary. Only 2 weeks. But it still is an odd feeling. A rush of emotions I did not expect. Our 16th wedding anniversary is Friday. And my hand will be naked as I celebrate our special day in a foreign country. I knew one day I would take off my wedding set. Probably move it to my right hand. But I hadn't planned to do it yet. Maybe the universe is trying to tell me something. Maybe my love is trying to give me a gentle push. Or maybe it's just simply because of my travel plans.
But I know my love is not contingent on a ring. My heart will always love Jared. Whether I am wearing his ring or not. My soul will always be attached to his. Whether my finger has a ring on it or not. He will always be a part of my life. I don't need a ring to prove it. But it sure seems weird for my finger to be empty after all these years.
Today, I took off my wedding rings.
Not by choice but by necessity.
And I don't like it.
My hand feels naked.
I will let you know how I feel in 2 weeks.
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