The holidays are especially hard for those of us grieving the loss of our great love. Our world turned upside. Our traditions are gone. Our family is missing a vital member.
Even though this is technically the second season with Jared in heaven, in many ways it feels like the first. I was so numb last year but this year, this year I feel.
I feel lonely.
I feel sad.
I feel lost.
I feel angry.
I feel jealous.
I feel like a phoney.
I feel like my heart may truly break.
I feel like crying at the drop of a hat.
I feel like my child is suffering because his dad is not here.
I feel like I have to be strong.
I want to feel peace.
I want to feel joy.
I want to feel love.
I feel...so many conflicting emotions.
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