On Friday my new beginning is coming to town and we are embarking on a new adventure. Our first road trip. Our first flight together. Spending time alone with each of our children. Trying to forge a family bond.
We are driving Steven to Boy Scout Camp. And Jon is flying in to make the trip with us. We'll spend hours together in the car. Time to talk. To play car games. To be a family. My wish is that the time together will bring Steven and Jon closer together. Help them to develop and solidify their relationship. Because if all goes as planned, Jon will be Steven's dad on earth. And I want Steven to love Jon. And I pray Jon can love Steven just a fraction of how he loves his daughter.
I'm going to meet his mother. The woman who raised the man I love. And I hope she likes me. What if she doesn't? Will our relationship survive if his mom doesn't approve? Can she understand that I will always love Jared and yet my whole heart loves her son. That I won't be perfect but I will do the best I can to make Jon happy.
And then I'll be spending a few days in Texas. Jon has to work during the day so depending on her schedule, Alli and I might have a lot of time together. And I hope she lets me in. Let's me be part of her life. Accepts me. And eventually grows to love me. I desperately want us to be a family but I can't force it. If I force it or push too hard, she'll push back. She is Jon's whole world and without her acceptance and approval, I'm not certain our relationship will go the distance. So I will do my very best to show Alli how much I care and love her without threatening her relationship with dad.
And this is just our first adventure. Our first adventure of many. Fingers crossed, we will have years of fun, family adventures.
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