What a difference a year makes. This time last year I was so deeply saddened that once again I was spending my birthday without Jared. And I could never imagine a day where I would once again celebrate my birthday with someone who loved me. Someone who would be my life partner.
But this year all that changed. Seven months ago, I met an amazing man. A man who wants to love me for who I am. A man who is willing to walk my widow journey with me. A man who knows there are going to be hard days and sad days but still wants to be by my side. A man who wants to be a father figure to my son. A man who wants us to be a family. A man who only wanted to make me feel special and loved on my birthday. And succeeded beyond my wildest expectations.
Do I still miss Jared? Absolutely. I will always miss him. But that doesn't mean I can't love someone new. Can't enjoy my birthday again. Can't feel loved and special in someone else's arms. Can't move forward.
On this day which marks a new year for me, I am starting anew. Making plans for my future with my new beginning. Planning our forever. A plan for which we have been praying and God gave us an answer this weekend. A plan that I am excited about. A future that I'm looking forward to beginning.
This weekend truly solidified our relationship. Deepened our connection. Proved that we are destined to be together. The plans for our future will, hopefully, make the distance more tolerable. As we look forward, we know where we are going and how we want to get there. And without our time together this weekend, that may not have happened.
A year ago I could not have imagined that I would be celebrating my next birthday with a man I love. But that's exactly what I did this weekend. It's amazing how much life can change when you open your heart to new beginnings.
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