For the first time since Jared died, I am looking forward to Valentine's Day. I am happy, extremely happy in my new relationship and can't wait to celebrate the day of love with my new beginning. Yet, my heart hurts because I miss Jared. I wish he were here. I wish he could see that I am happy again. I wish he could have met Jon. And that Jon could have known Jared. I know that sounds crazy because if Jared were here, I wouldn't be with Jon.
Even as I journey deeper into my new, wonderful relationship, I will always treasure my love story with Jared. A love story that was different than most. A love, that despite the pain and heartache of grief, I was blessed to know. And would do all over again. A love story that will never end because death does not end love. Our love story gave me my greatest gift, a boy who reminds me daily of his daddy. A love story where I was blessed to be Jared's forever love.
And now I am blessed with new love. A wonderful, new, exciting, amazing love. A love I never expected to find. A love for which I didn't even know I was ready. A love I truly believe was heaven sent. A love that makes me excited to celebrate Valentine's Day.
On this Valentine's Day, I will be grateful that I am twice blessed. That I was blessed with a wonderful love story with Jared. A love story that shaped who I am today and will continue to guide me as I venture forward in life. And that I am blessed with a new love story with Jon. A love that is my future.
I would never have believed that Valentine's Day could be good again. But here I am the 3rd Valentine's after Jared's death, looking forward to celebrating this day of love. I will celebrate my love stories. Past, present, and future.
Happy Valentine's Day.
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