Year of Change

This year has been one of many changes. And more changes are coming.  Change can be terrifying but it can also be rewarding.

One big change has been me opening my heart to new love. If someone had told me a year ago that and I would be honoring Jared with a new love by my side I would have thought they were crazy. But that's just what we did this year. On September 16th, Jared's angelversary, we gathered together to celebrate the man we will never forget. And Jon was right by my side. As I sat at the table and looked around, I realized this is what I wanted. I wanted to move forward, to live my best life, to love with all my heart. And it is my choice who gets to sit at my table.  Who is my family.  Who is my tribe.  I'm so grateful Jon loves me for me and wants to be a part of my crazy journey.

Part of moving forward and living my best life is making some life changing big decisions.  Deciding what is best for Steven and I now, at this point in our journey. I have been praying hard for guidance.  And I finally feel at peace.  Comfortable with my decision to sell our home and move to St Pete.  Closer to Steven's school and friends.  Decreasing my commute for work. We have been house hunting for the last 2 weekends and hands down I have a favorite new home.  Now to see if it is where God thinks I need to be.  Will it be easy to leave the home we shared with Jared?  No.  Easy to leave the only home Steven has really ever known? No.  Easy to leave my friends and support network? No. But we will take our memories with us.  Steven will have new adventures in our new house. My friends and I will still get together, distance won't end our friendship.  

Change can be so frightening. Fear of failure. Fear of the unknown. Fear of letting go.  But it can be so exciting to start something new.  This year has been full of changes.  I can't wait to see what other new adventures await me.