Missing my someone

Tonight is one of those nights where my heart aches and my soul hurts in a manner words cannot describe.

I miss my husband.  I miss my love.

I miss someone to love me.  Someone to hold me.  Someone to kiss my forehead.  Someone to wrap their arms around me and say "I love you more."  Someone to snuggle me at night and then say "move over you're making me hot.". Someone to be excited to see me at the end of the day. Someone to text me  good night, I love you or good morning pretty lady.  Someone to leave me a love note for no reason.  Someone to make me feel special. Someone to share a laugh without saying a word.  Someone to sit with in a comfortable silence.  Someone to hold pinkies as we walk down the street.  Someone to put their hand on my knee as we drive in the car.  Someone to play with my hair as we snuggle up and watch a movie. Someone to get dressed up for. Someone to yell at for leaving dirty dishes in the sink.

I miss my someone.  I miss Jared.

Tonight my heart aches for a man who can never again do any of those things. A wonderful man who's time on earth was cut short.  A smart ass who now breathes easily with the angels.  A man who loved me for me; good, bad, and ugly.  A man who gave me the fairy tale.   A man who will always live in my heart and be part of my soul.  A man who I will miss until my dying day.  A man I had to let go; go to his eternal home.

Tonight my heart aches and my soul hurts because Jared and I shared a great love.  A love for which I am thankful.  A love that is worth this pain.  A love that is everlasting.

Tonight my heart hurts and that is a testimony to our love.  I miss you Jared, more than words can say.