Weepy day

I'm not sure why but today is a weepy day.
Maybe it is because the holiday season is here and Jared is not.
Maybe it is because Steven is talking more about his loss and that just breaks my heart.
Maybe it is because I am lonely, a void only my husband can fill.
Maybe it's because the reality and depth of my loss has hit me like a ton of bricks.
Maybe it because in some ways year 2 is much harder than your one.
Maybe it's because I have to find a new me and I have no idea who that woman is.
Maybe it's because I'm traveling for work and that is always a trigger.
Maybe it's just because when you love someone deeply and they die, it is a wound that never heals.

Maybe, maybe, maybe. A word very similar to why. Two words that are said often and neither provides answers.